Neya's Life 2

May 25,1997,Oh my gosh..i have a baby brother..he's so cute...yes..Brian..my brother ..he was great company..but not till he grew up.When Brian Grew up..it was hard to tell you the truth..he was like my half brother..he smacks me..pull my hair..everything..i hate it.my mom would scold me for everything..Everything including what brian did..it hurts...it breaks my heart...its like the past became the future..where my cousins and half brother hated me...My nightmare came back...

Everyday when i look at my mom carrying brian..i felt jealousy..i think every moment.."does my mom loves me too..?..does dad too?..does my family do...?"..i was in doubt..after the way im being treated..everything seems so unfair..i feel pain..i wanted to get rid of myself..i wanted to run away..i wanted to feel love...but..where can i get them..?

I try my best everyday..at least to get some praise..At school..i try my best..but..i always get 80+ on my report card..(74 down is the failing mark)..its hard enough for me since im quite slow..my cousins are very smart..especially the 2 daughters of my uncle who has the same birthdate as mine..i admired them..i love them..they are always on the top 5..but..there is one reason that made the envy in me on them worse..One night..my parents told me something that hurt me..until now...